Taming my Ego is a bigger task than I thought it would be.

My ego kills me every time. And, the kicker of it is I used to think I didn’t have an ego to battle. I mean, not really. I figured since I wasn’t an ego maniac that meant that I didn’t have the troubles that many did. WRONG. Then, with some pushing from my Beachbody peeps,  I attended a Dani Johnson event and my ego took a big old hit square between her beady little eyes.

You see, I’m a Team Beachbody Coach and part of my job is to regularly partake in personal development. This means I read books, attend seminars and listen to audio on various topics such as leadership, sales, and emotional development. Our team’s professional trainer is Dani Johnson so I went to one of her trainings where she promptly knocked me on my ass then shoved a big old mirror in my hand and forced me to take a long hard look. I gotta tell you, I didn’t really like what I saw.

Since then, I’ve been monitoring my feelings and behaviors. By closely observing myself I’ve been able to pinpoint when my ego rears her ugly head and pops up in the form of jealousy, bitterness, contempt, and an otherwise unpleasant demeanor. When she’s around, I find myself to be whiny, accusing, and basically in a stomp-my-feet-and-cross-my-arms-over-my-chest kind of mood. You know the general demeanor and can probably hear the whiny voice in its petulant tone demanding to know, “Why not meeeeee?!?!?!?!” Quite frankly, I’m embarrassed of my behavior when she’s around and her appearance annoys me greatly. I do not enjoy having to battle her as she’s a sneaky little devil that slinks her way into my mind and eventually my actions. She’s quick to discount other’s successes, criticize their choices, dismiss her own failings as the fault of others, envy what others do but deem it “unreasonable” or claim she doesn’t want success like that. It’s been a battle of epic proportions; trying  to get her under control.

The REALLY cool part?!?!?!? I’m getting better. I recognize her faster, am able to put her to rest faster, and get over myself faster. While there’s room for improvement, I’m doing significantly better than I have done in the past and that, my friends, is progress. I’ll take that all day long.

I love having Beachbody in my life for workouts (P90X, Turbo Fire, Body Beast, Insanity & more) as well as Shakeology. Those are working VERY well together to transform my outside. Being a Coach and working on my personal development is really helping me develop the inside. There’s no sense looking good on the outside if you’ve got an ugly inside, right?